Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Do you know the power of the healing gemstone- Blue Apatite?
"Isn't this Anindita?"- chime the lady next in line. I try to place the face.
"Lady Brabourne College, remember? I am Anjuli.-- she added.
"Of course I remember, Anjuli" I give her a tight hug.
My, Anjuli must have gained a hundred pounds!But I bite my tongue before blabbering out -You have changed so much. Instead I say, "How long has it been, Anju- thirty years?"
Anjuli was our college queen (like the Prom Queen, here). She was the tennis champion, college representative for Debate Tournaments, and the most popular gal in the campus. I was not in her close friend circle, rather one in her fan club.
I fancied keeping track of the gossips that hummed around her- how different suitors and young men tried to approach and catch her and how with swift swings, spins and smashes she handled them like her ping pong game.
"Remember the guy who held a bet with his friends to show off that he knew you?'- we chuckle.
"So who's the lucky winner finally? Is it Ron?"
"Yes, Ron." A shy yet strange smirk rises and fades.
"Have time today? I have to kill an hour before I pick up my child from his S.A.T. tutorial.
"Absolutely. I have to make time. There is so much to catch up"
So, we find a tiny table in Barbara's Bakery. And this is where I looked forward to find her every Wednesday for the next few weeks. We opened our lives to each other over cups of lattes and the gourmet goodies Barbara could offer.
From the best student Anjuli became the best mom, best neighborhood volunteer and the best home maker in town. Then the Supermom syndrome hit her when she found that she had nothing else left for herself.
"I was exhausted, you know." With several surgeries and health problems pounds piled up upon her.
"It was not that I was unaware. I tried different diets and each time it sank me a bit more at the end. It was like I was walking on a quick pit.
When I look in the mirror, I wonder who is this? My face has changed." I lost myself, Anindita. I hide myself from me. I choose clothes that hide my body these days,can you believe that? It was just the other way round one day, you know.
Then I hid myself from Ron. I tried to escape from him until our marriage withered and died.
It's all me, it's all my fault. I don't blame Ron a bit. But in reality, in action I did it everyday. I blamed, blamed, blamed him everyday for everything- from squeezing the tooth paste the wrong way, watching the wrong T.V.shows to spending his own earned money the wrong way.
I left him. I tore down the nest that I had built with so much care one day."
She paused. Then fixing her gaze some far away she added:
"You know- deep down I felt that Ron does not deserve this Anju. It's not fair to him. He's my first love and perhaps I love him more than myself. But he'd never know that.
Then, you know who comes to rescue, to comfort, to put emollient on my wound?
This soft cream on the warm bun." She took a long slow lick with her eyes closed. Then abruptly with a jerk she shoved off her plate across the table.
Tears rolled down her cheeks. I held her hand. It was time to go. It was time to let go.
Next week she agreed to my proposal of taking a walk around the block instead of visiting Barbaras while we caught up with our stories.
I told her about my ecstasy of doing jewelry (the career change) and the agony of the financial struggle of doing what you love to do, no matter what they say.
Next week we found a Weight Watcher meeting place that existed at the other side of the shopping center.
A month later Anju achieved her first 5% weight loss goal. We celebrated it having French manicure done on our nails. We discovered this beauty parlor only nine blocks away on our walking route.
Very soon Anju will be on her 10% loss goal. She is almost there. I am making a knitted wire bracelet for her to celebrate that. It is with blue apatite gemstone beads and mid night blue fresh water pearls knitted with silver wire.
I have studied that apatite is a balancing stone that helps suppress food craving. It helps in concentrating and meditation. It helps with anger and negativity and restores the physical, emotional and spiritual balances.
Pearl brings good fortune, love and a general sense of well being.
With these thoughts and a prayer that may the healing stones show their promises I'll offer her my humble creation.
Of course I'll make one for you too or your loved ones. Do check my etsy store. And I'll make one for myself too- I promise.